As I predicted, we decided we'd put the IVF stuff on hold for a few months at least - I think we're going to reconsider our decision around the time we get back from Japan, around mid-November.
We should have a better idea of when our land will title, and when the building of our house will start - we've signed all the contracts and we're just waiting on final mortgage approval from the bank. We'll be building in Williams Landing, and we've picked a nice two storey house - well, I say that now. We'll see what I think when it comes time to move in.
So that's where all my emotional energy has been going lately. I even stopped focusing on the weight loss thing and the exercise thing, with, of course, the expected result - I've gained back four kilos from my all time lowest weight.
Over the past few weeks I've been really focusing on getting back to the gym and eating properly, and I've lost about 2.5 of that... so a little more focus and attention to go and hopefully I will be back in the habit.
I am playing a weekly game of netball, and trying to keep myself occupied with other thoughts while it feels like everyone around me is getting pregnant - sometimes it's more than I can take, especially when I've got my period and I feel like a failure for another month.
But, you know, I have these little guys, and One, and so I do my best to stay positive.
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